Me...

yeah, so i have been living in RI the whole summer. it def was not as fun as i thought it would be. I had a good time some of the time but the other times...my rents were giving me hard time, or i did something stupid. the usual. what else is new.

I learned somethings this summer. Though some of them were at an expense, some huge, some small. but those r different stories all together.

Anyway, time to get to bed. I'm flying to Cali tomorrow and i need to finish packing. yeah, i know, i'm a slacker. ok, off to pack and bed. nite

Current Mood: and cranky
Current Music: in my head

here's one:


Cocktail


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For Sarah E:


you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse


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one more for the road:


cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
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comfortable, and needed


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ok, i'm done. nite y'all. sleep tight

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: nothing...too lazy to put on music right now

Hello my darlings!

I out here in sunny Cali waiting for visiters. :) I have my own place now. yay!

SO yeah, I am sitting here happy cause I am in Cali, but i am realizing it's just not the same. I left the snow, boring car rides, and sh*tty bosses behind, but i also left some of my best friends. I really miss u guys. My mood went downhill fast. sigh. oh well.

I'll talk for a little while, letting u guys know what's going on in my life. I am persuing a graduate degree in Electrical and Materials Engineering. yeah, i know...kinda two degrees. oh well. James and I are still good friends, best actually, but we're not together. It kinda sux, but then again I came here for the school, not him. So i guess it comes with the territory. One of my oldest and best friends is in Baha, Mexico diving with the fishies and I can't talk to her for another week. And another one of my oldest and best friends in far away in Boston and i really miss him since i didn't get to see him before i left. And i miss my FL guy...Brian, u rock my socks! ;)

Things just are't the same without my Worcester friends. I really miss u guys too. I miss singing with u guys, joking around in rehersal, even a suff or two (Drew!). sigh. I miss u guys. It's that simple.

ok, well, i actuall need to go do hmwk. So i am off to the back rooms of the library.

If u guys need anything or want to come visit, don't hesitate to call me. (401)-996-3081

Luv u guys!

Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Maroon 5 - (I dunnno the name, it's track 12)

Here are some pics of mine and James' off-roading adventure this past weekend. We had a blast camping and off-roading with the PolyGoats, Cal Poly's 4-wheelin' club. :-D











Hope all is well kiddies! Luv u guys! and miss u lots!

~Elana

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: nothing...the sounds of the campus

I'm in Cali at Cal Poly.

My cell number is the same.

that is all.

Current Mood: excited

So yeah, Grad school is goona be awesome...where ever i go. I think. sigh.

I got into FIT and URI. I am just waiting to hear from Cal Poly. But the decision is still gonna be hard. If i go to Cal Poly (and i think even FIT) my parents don't wanna pay for it. So i have to get a loan and work my way through grad school. Well, i think it's worth it.......so here we go!

Yeah, so it's been a few weeks since my grandfather died and all i know is i need to talk to him. And he's not here. :( It sux.

Everything is all messed up and i need to get out of this house. Sigh...hopefully grad school will work out for me.

Well, that's it for now.

Current Mood: and sad
Current Music: Lit - Ziplock

but yeah, in light of the recent events, i know why I am this way. My uncle just got here and we are talkign abotu old times. It's good to have a loving family that takes care of each other, even though we are all a little screwed up in our own ways. :-P

But yeah, I guess I should explain. My grandfather died recently. It was so sudden, none of us expected it. :-/ He was so full of life, to have it taken away was such a blow to the soul. sigh, he was such a wonderful person and I hope one day to be like him.

Well, that's the way things have been for the past few days. It's been a while since I have typed in here. I guess I should go on and tell u what else is new.

James is in Cali and i miss him. He's still my baby whether we are together or not, which unfortunately we r not together. :-/ we'll see what happens with grad school, maybe i'll see him again, in the meantime we are best friends. :-D
I have not heard anythign about grad school yet. I am waiting to hear if i got in or not at Cal Poly, FIT and URI. we'll see.
I am taking two grad courses at URi and they r ok, I am actually nto impressed at the grad EE program, but then again, i am not officially in it :-P
I am working at Mews Tavern again this year. I worked there last summer and it was a blast. As it is this year! Except for one of my bosses who is an uptight little twit. sigh. whatev, i like my job, i just iwsh i worked more days.
I went to Worcester the other day, Tuesday, to the Coffeehouse. Ryan Montbleau is awesome. If any of u guys wanna come see him, let me know becasue i want to get tickets to his show on November 20th at the Paradise rock club. And i wanna bring people! :)

Ok, so that's about it for me now. I miss u guys and can't wait till Road Trip! I am coming by the way. I cant' wait to see my girls and boys perform!! I miss singing. sigh. ok, well, rock out girls and boys! and i will see u on the flip side! lata! :::Mwah!:::

PS - I'll post some stuff I've been writing later. I got some poetry to get out. maybe a song or two, we'll see. :)

Current Mood: and very sad
Current Music: I have "All my ex's live in Texas" stuck in my head, sigh

ha ha ha ha ha ha! :::belly laugh:::

I just read one of my past entries. I'm tangy!! :-P hehehehehe

Anyway, just wated to say hi to all my friends and tell them i miss them very much.

oh yeah, and James: i miss u so much!!!!!!! Can't wait to see u again. :)

ok, luv u guys!! :-*

Current Mood: okay
Current Music: nothing...the sounds of the URI library

ok, so yeah. I am happy! well, at much as i can be without my baby. But yeah...i heard from a few of my friends from WPI in the last couple of days! I heard from Maria, Melissa, Drew, Sarah E. :) That makes me feel good. :) I am glad i got to hear from u guys, i miss u.

Well, nothing really big here. I am going to see James in California! Cali here I come!! yay! However, i have to wait until November...sigh, oh well. At least I am going, I almost wasn't. Stupid parents.

Also, I am now a redhead. :-D well, at least for the next month :-P

Well, hope all is well with everyone. Dont' heistat to call or email me. Luv u guys!!

Current Mood: content
Current Music: stupid debate

So yeah, here is some stuff that i thought was cool. i haven't looked at it for a while so i dont' know exactly what it says...but we'll ahve to see. :-P

What kind of a girlfriend/boyfriend are you?
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Favourite Color
You are	sexy and keep them coming back for more
When your g/f-b/f thinks you are	A fallen angel
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Extrovert or Introvert?	Introvert
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Sexual Allure - 86%
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Current Mood: i miss my baby
Current Music: nothing...i'm in the URi library...sigh

One of my new favorite quotes:

"Save a horse, ride a cowboy!"

I can't believe they actually made a song about it :)

And another quote i created for Chris...who i hope comes home safe and soon: "Save a tank, ride a soldier!" ;)

Current Mood: and fat :-P ;)
Current Music: none...yet...

I hate MQP!!!!!!!!!!
do the words "shoot me now" mean anything?
Damn i need to get this the f*ck over with.

ok, so, problems in the head again. My family's gettign on my nerves. Yesterday i had to call out of work becasue my friggin sister wouldn't leave Boston early and no one else would take her to her classes. I seriously was about to strangle somebody. No one would give anythign up and so I had to. What a great way to teach your kids about work ethics. bastards.

Plus, I need a constant. I have no stability in my life. Friends come and go, i don't have school in the fall, my home life is sh*t, and my boy's not around (plus, he's no longer a constant either...stupid grad school). I hope he get into Cal Poly beasue it'll make him happy, but i also hope he doesn't becasue I don't wanna lose him.

Grrrrrrr...i know things could be a lot worse and i shouldn't complain, but i can't help it. I need somewhere to vent.

Current Mood: and just plain unstable
Current Music: nothing...stupid computers

I've got a lot of sh*t on my mind lately. I need a break. A break form everythign and everyone. sigh.

Current Mood: + sad
Current Music: nothing! damn computer won't play anything

ok, so today sucked...kinda. I have to go to school this summer to finish my project. So, my parents have to spend more money which i am not happy about. oh well. It rained on me, and i have no money in my account and it may bounce because of my roommate. grrrrrr.

However, in good news...i got to talk to James! :) :) :)
I love talking to him. We had good conversations today. I didn't want to get off the phone but i forced myself to. oh well.

I get to see Shalon this weekend! yay! and added bonus...we r going to 6 Flags Saturday! double yay! I am so excited about this weekend. I get to see James and Shal. yay!

ok, so, off to do more work. I wanna get it done quickly. I will be in Worcester two times a week, so if u guys r around we can hang out or something :)

PS - I'm sorry to all the girls that r supposed to be living above T-Sams. I am sorry u guys have to go through that. If there is anything i can do let me know. :)

Current Mood: and miss James :-/
Current Music: Stone Temple Pilots - Plush (acoustic)

yes...i think this is me. what do u think? :)

Wow. A lot of things changing lately. I think it's too much for me to handle. I don't want change. I really don't. sigh.

If u see me...give me A hug, or two. I need one where ever i can get it. sigh. I love u guys and i will keep in touch...i promise. And please...don't hesitate to call, IM, or even email me. i mean it. And that means everyone...including my non-WPI friends.

I guess this all means i'm just opening another chapter in my life. But what if i am not ready for the next chapter? What if I want part of this chapter to stay with me? I really have no idea what to say anymore. I think I am babbling. I am just sad and really tired of it all.

I'll post more later. I might even write a poem or two. oh well, back to MQP (THE DEVIL!).

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: TONS! Launch radio rocks!

ok, so I want my 60's camaro. Sigh...i just need a job first. ok, i'm done for now.

PS - MQP is the devil incarnate. seriously.

Current Mood: busy
Current Music: Billy Joel - The Stranger

ohmigod! i can't believe it! the last day of undergrad classes. I am psyched and scared all at the same time. I don't wanna leave my girls! and my guys. :-P U guys have been awesome in the 4 or less years i have known you. You have no idea how great u've been. I love u guys!

wow...i really dunno what to write. I can't leave an address casue i dont' know where i will be, but i cna leave email addresses :-P Angel13692@yahoo.com, and emayer@alum.wpi.edu

sigh...i am such a tech dork. anyway, i am just rambling cause i don't know what to say. i am gonna miss u guys so much!

Current Mood: but sad
Current Music: talking in CC...sigh...the sounds of campus :(

I HATE MQP!!!!!!! I swear I am gonna through this damn thing out the friggin window!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: + tired
Current Music: Shania Twain - no idea what song (I'm in the CC, still)

This is my response to a posting by Melissa. i decided to put it in my journal because it is important to life in general. :) Plus, she made me think...which is a good thing! usually..... :-P

Well, i guess u can think that way. Life throws me a lot of sh*t at once and I never know if i can handle it, but i do. I guess what u can always tell yourself is that everythign will be ok. Whether or not it will end the way you want it to is the question. I mean, take recently with me. James and I broke up, my MQP advisor told me that i wasn't gonna graduate, my MQP presentation didnt' save my most important slide, my presentation didn't go as well as i had hoped, My mom has been callign lately just to yell at me,...the list goes on from there. But i got through it. In the end...I am typing my MQP as i write this comment and James and I r back together. It ended the way i wanted it to, but it might not have and i had to prepare myself for that.

I am working my ass off to get out of that rut. U need to push youself out, u can't wait for someone else to do it for u. I mean if hope is the way u do it, so be it. If there is something else, that fine too. It could be a person, a feeling, hope, life in general. Anything you can use to push yourself to work through it all.

Melissa hunny, find your something. That's all u need to do. If it's a person, a feeling, etc. I mean, u can even use me! :-P :) if u need me i am here.

ok, well, there will probably be more later. :-P I luv u all!!! :-* I am alwasy here if u guys need me.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Drew and James talking...sigh...boys